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From: Christopher McKinstry
Date: Fri Jan 20, 2006 2:28 pm
Subject: So what exacty does a web suicide note look like? chrismckinstry
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Exctly like this:
"Whereas a prolonged life is not necessarily better, a prolonged death
is necessarily worse."
Seneca
My death at least will be quick, and far better than many and
completely in my control, others I now will have to rot from the
indide out. Worse I think..
My mother told me once, late into my teen when I was in intensive care
after an intentional drug overdose, that my child psychiatrist told
her when I was six that I would always be a risk of suicide and that I
would have to be watched closely. He was right. Something due to birth
trama he said.
Suicide is a near constant theme in my mind. And this weekend, I am
alone and the suicidal voice is louder than it has ever been, so I am
certain I will not survive the the afternoon. I have already taken
enough drugs that my already weakened liver will shut down very soon
and I am off to find a place to hide and die.
I a tired. I am tired of feeling the same feelings and experiencing
the same experiences. It is time to move on and see what is next if
anything.
Enough is enough.
Oh and BTW, the mind is a maximum hypersurface and thought a
trajectory on it and the amygdala and hippocampus are Hopf maps of it.
No one knew this before me, and it seems no one cares. So be it. My
time will come in a hundred or a thousand years when the idea again
returns.
This Luis Vuitton, Parada, Mont Blanc commercial universe is not for
me. If only I was loved as much a Mont Blac pen...
I responded with my standard "staying alive and annoying people is more effective than suicide" but i don't know if he ever read it. ah well. i think he was a good guy. i'm sorry he's not around still to challenge me with his thoughts. but perhaps his ideas will live on.
Not that there's anything wrong with suicide, you understand! I'm just sad for selfish reasons, he could have helped me increase my own knowledge.
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Date: Fri Jan 20, 2006 2:28 pm
Subject: So what exacty does a web suicide note look like? chrismckinstry
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Exctly like this:
"Whereas a prolonged life is not necessarily better, a prolonged death
is necessarily worse."
Seneca
My death at least will be quick, and far better than many and
completely in my control, others I now will have to rot from the
indide out. Worse I think..
My mother told me once, late into my teen when I was in intensive care
after an intentional drug overdose, that my child psychiatrist told
her when I was six that I would always be a risk of suicide and that I
would have to be watched closely. He was right. Something due to birth
trama he said.
Suicide is a near constant theme in my mind. And this weekend, I am
alone and the suicidal voice is louder than it has ever been, so I am
certain I will not survive the the afternoon. I have already taken
enough drugs that my already weakened liver will shut down very soon
and I am off to find a place to hide and die.
I a tired. I am tired of feeling the same feelings and experiencing
the same experiences. It is time to move on and see what is next if
anything.
Enough is enough.
Oh and BTW, the mind is a maximum hypersurface and thought a
trajectory on it and the amygdala and hippocampus are Hopf maps of it.
No one knew this before me, and it seems no one cares. So be it. My
time will come in a hundred or a thousand years when the idea again
returns.
This Luis Vuitton, Parada, Mont Blanc commercial universe is not for
me. If only I was loved as much a Mont Blac pen...
I responded with my standard "staying alive and annoying people is more effective than suicide" but i don't know if he ever read it. ah well. i think he was a good guy. i'm sorry he's not around still to challenge me with his thoughts. but perhaps his ideas will live on.
Not that there's anything wrong with suicide, you understand! I'm just sad for selfish reasons, he could have helped me increase my own knowledge.
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